tomorrow....what if

Tomorrow i will talk to you...and tell you what i feel for you...i know it wont matter..bcs i know u dont feel the same for me...but i cant lie to myself anymore that you do..but you cant say it or you cant love me the way i want...it from you...i know i will regret it but its one thing to w8 for you to let me inside and accept that maybe just maybe you feel someting more for me two...and another to lead me on that you may feel something for me..in the future..but they are all lies...all of them...and you are one Big Lie...i am not angry bcs you did what u did with maro,its youre life....i am dissapointed that you asked me to trust you nothing will happane between you two...but it did...the fact that i loved you and we would have gotten together by the end of the week didnt matter....even if its what i know will happane tomorrow i still hope you would say what it is in youre heart...u like me as a friend...or more...i just want to know where we stand...bcs i cant go on like this anymore..i tought i could...but i cant..i cant stay on the line and do nothing and be youre friend and hear with whom you fu*k and things like that....i cant be youre friend bcs i love you and each time i see you..i like you more and more...this will never change...i hope it will bcs its hard and painfull..and i cant live like this....but i know after tomorrow..i will suffere like an idiot for you.someone who didnt deserve me or my love....someone who prefers mediocrity,shallowness and ignorants...but as i once told you girls want either money or a good fu*k...noone wants more then that....